here is a poem i just wrote.. it's called written in red i don't know why

today like every other day

you were there to steal my smile

usually, from afar

but this time you zoomed in

with my camera eyes i’d see

grinning grim as you grin

i even saved you some peril

but no words were said to me

so close yet so far has a new meaning

just like bittersweet

you can redefine every word in the dictionary

or redefine whats wrong and right

but loving you is mandatory

it’s something you knew,

i knew, was inevitable

a glance from you freezes my mandible

i strive for words to speak and seek

for you to take the first and leak

some closure for me so i can freak

out a little bit later in life and just enjoy

this time i have with you and reminisce

while dreaming of you with me i miss

those days you spoke and smiled to me

it wasn’t much but i know you are

the perfect man - so make me be

the girl you’ve always wanted

i may not be there yet but you don’t know

i’m crying for you, dying for you

maybe ’cause it doesn’t show

but i bet you know i want to take back

everything i wrote and spoke

that freaked you out so bad that i had

to stay away from you for 5 months

i’ve cried and waited

patiently, wishing i was sedated

so i couldn’t feel the pain

from not being able to regain

the sweetest most horrid beauty of all

that is you, the one i recall

as bittersweet sugar - sweet as candy

bitter as hell, you know, the one i send

mental notes to - all crying HELP ME (written in red)